Flashback

The past 3 days have been absolutely amazing. Really surreal but so much fun. Chelsea arrived on Monday, just basically for a short stopover, and we managed to see each other everyday for Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Unfortunately she left this morning, but I had a blast the last 3 days - probably one of the best days in Japan! On Tuesday, we also met up with Aya which was definitely like going back on a time machine to days in Dover Court even! It was loads of fun with all the gossip she had for us. hehehe. From Chelsea, I also heard that one person thought I had changed! but the person she mentioned, i haven't even talked to for ages! he just says i have changed from peeking at my photos. u know who u are, hehe, and i think u should write to me. so write to me, and tell me how. from today, it is back to my normal life. i know, it sounds funny, but i really felt as though it was a different experience altogether u know?

Anyway, here are some great photos (well great not quality wise) but yeah, great memory photos! if u get what i mean....

Taking a Break

Right now, I am in the midst of studying, but I needed to take a break so here I am writing a post! I haven't for like 3 days? that's quite a record for me! hehe. Anyhoo, the pics below are made by my sister! So sweet, she thinks we are the best sisters. Sekaijuu, (what it says in characters means 'in the world' - which I am sure character readers can detect!) Anyhooo. yesterday was an awesome day. Walked form Shibuya - Harajuku - Roppongi Hills - Harajuku - attempted to walk to Yoyogi - Shibuya! A very good exercising day.
Later on today, I should be booking my flights to SING! Finalmente! I haven't been back for 11 months? but it's strange, I actually feel like it wasn't that long ago. I think it's because I still feel close to the people there! and I still love em like CRAZY!
I got a call from Colorado today! while I was washing my face! That made my Sunday! It's perfect. I love him. He is coming in Sept! How exciting! But there is still a lot to do and a lot of time before then... But knowing that getting to see him at the end of all that is worth everything.
Tomorrow, CHELSEA is coming from Melbourne! I am going to be her tourguide. I hope I don't get lost! hehehe. She is here till Wed, which is great! A lot to catch up on huh. I haven't seen her in AGGGGGEEEESSSSSS.
Anyhoo. Last but not least, I would like u to meet my creative, it's name is Greenbo (green bob). It's got awesome sound quality! But now I have to save money so I can eat all the chicken rice, nasi lemak, laksa, bah ku teh (i cant remember if thats how u spell it), in the world. Ah. Bliss.

Self Explanatory
A KopiRight?

Mummy's Angels
A KopiRight?

Being Selective, Turning down an Audition, AND being Bored at School!

Wow, it seems like forever since I posted my last blog simply because with the exception of the past 2 days, I had been blogging every single day! hehehe. Anyhooo. A lot has happened actually, though nothing has changed!

On Tuesday, I turned down what could have been a third audition in Japan. But I am pretty sure that after thinking about it since then that I made the right choice. You see, when I first got asked to send my documents (back in MAY!), it sounded like it was going to be quite a fun, yet DANCE BASED job, although it had to do with cheerleading for a baseball team in the TOKYO DOME (wow!) After a month I got my reply from the people telling me that after document screening I had been accepted to be given the chance to audition this friday.... However, it started getting a bit weird. Firstly, it sounded like the cheer team and dance team had been combined. And secondly, the audition was quite late at night, at HARAJUKU (which is famous for being kinda a strange place!)and thirdly I was told that I could ask anyone who was interested in theatre and dance to come to the audition. Oh! And lastly, there didn't seem to be a dance audition, just a self introduction speech which was to be made on the camera so that they could send it to Osaka, where the company that was hiring was based. Moreover, I asked my friend how much we would be getting paid and she had ABSOLUTELY no idea, which is a little strange cause normally u get a rough estimate of the pay u know? Anyhow, I did consider it back on Tuesday because in a way I thought it would be a good experience and it was a JOB. (which i haven't got). BUT, on the other hand, it was a debate over time or money. If I had done the show, it may be possible that I would've worked WAY OVERTIME... SO i turned it down.... But I guess the reason why I turned it down was a little more personal than that.... I think after 17 or so years of dancing, I just wanted to believe that I was a better dancer than that.... Just jumping up and down and cheering. Obviously, I couldve just had this detached viewpoint, and just considered it as a job... But unfortunately I don't think that I couldve done that because all the people that I wouldve been 'dancing' with considers this pretty much their career. I don't mind the others considering this a career at all, it's just not the path that I wanted to take.
Finally, I think that I probably did the right thing, considering the fact that my dad says he believes that if I wait, I might get a better chance! It was nice to know once again that my dad is still supporting my desire to dance, and to become a dancer - whatever that actually means now!

Anyhow, so here I am, typing this entry at school. I know that there are some people I consulted with, and I thank you for listening to me rambling on and on about this! But here is the WHOLE reason why I turned it down. Maybe I shouldve done it, maybe not. But a real important friend told me (and so did my parents for that matter!) that as much as they know how much I want to dance, it is important to be able make selections and turn some opportunities down... if deep down, u actually believe that these opportunities are something other.

YESTERDAY WAS PERFECT

Went to lunch with my friends to a place called Ciao ChiangMai, which sells THAI FOOD obviously! It's kinda like that place in Sing in Takashimaya, that I liked. Shit! I cant remember what it's called now! AHHHH! Anyway, after that I went to dance, which was SO good. The teacher calls me "Anna" which is so nice cause he doesn't call me mori san or anna san or anything like that. i like the yobisute. hehehe. After that, way after that, at midnight! I got a call from Colorado! WOOHOO! that made my day absolutely perfect! It basically was a stamp on an already perfect day, if u know what i mean?! hehehe. So it's all good in my world, and I hope that it is all good in yours too. Have a good day, or good night and oyasumi!

The Wrong Road Perhaps

I believe
This is heaven to no one else but me
And I'll defend it long as I can be left here to linger in silence
If I choose to would you try to understand
Oh the quiet child awaits the day when she can break free
The mold that clings like desperation
Oh mother (father) don't you see I've got
To live my life the way I feel is right for me,
Say it's not right for you
But it's right for me
I believe
This is heaven to no one else but me
And I'll defend it long as I can be left here to linger in silence
If I chose to would you try to understand
- Bethany Joy Lenz "Elsewhere" (One Tree Hill)

Since I entered Uni, I have wondered many times if I had made the wrong choice in not attempting to dance in the 'real world' straight after UWC. What am I studying now? Art and Literature mainly. This ridiculous major is my back up plan. What kind of back up plan is it? My main question is whether it will get me a job after I graduate? A job that is good enough to allow me some time AND money to continue my passion. --> I find myself laughing because this hope of mine is just too good to be true. It's absurd. A job with money and time?! (so that it can be used to pursue something else?!)
A few weeks ago, my mum, for the first time, acknowledged the possibility that my parents may have made the wrong choice in sending me to Uni instead of encouraging me to pursue dance. I love and trust my parents, and i hope to God that they haven't made the wrong choice. Sometimes I do wonder what I am doing every single day when I want to be doing something else ya know? But I am sure I am not alone when I say that, so this aint me feeling sorry for myself. This is actually just me trying to get stuff sorted in my head. As the time gets nearer to graduation (i mean, if all goes well, it's NEXT YEAR!) i get excited and terribly frightened at the same time. There are two things I want to do basically, and one of them is Dance, so I will work my ass off now, and get a degree with good grades or something, and get money so i can dance before my bones rot!
Thanks for being a part of my clearing-my- head process. Now I shall go watch Wimbledon cause that's nice and random. Love!

India Arie's Complicated Melody

If he were a colour
He'd be a deep dark
Forest Green
If he were a car
He'd be a long stretch limousine
With room for all
of humanity inside
Cause he is so giving
And he is so wise
If he were a number
He'd be a five cause he has
such a brilliant mind
If he were an animal
He'd be an ass
Cause he's so stubborn sometime

But if he were a song
He'd be a complicated melody
that complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key

But he means the world to me

If he were a building
He'd be a beautiful cathedral
Cause he's so
traditionally spiritual
If he were a dance
He'd be complicated like the tango
Exotic like a mango

But if he were a song
He'd be a complicated melody
that complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key

But he means the world to me


There is no doubt that there are some lines that really remind me of my special someone! Right now, I am eating choco that he gave me, hehe, and I am thinking of him. If you are reading this, know that I am missing you and so excited about seeing you!
Anyway, this song's lyrics are truthful and nice, but together with the melody it's beautiful so if you get the chance, listen to it!

Mosquito and Friendship! (Warning: Corny Blog)

So I have this Huge Mosquito in my room that has bitten all three ladies of the family and is right now being smug somewhere in my bloody room! I cant go to bed unless I catch it so right now, I am going to write yet another entry, cause I am really hot on blogging right now! (insert smiley face here)

It was really coincidental cause earlier on today, D wrote an entry about friendship, and I was thinking of doing the same tonight! (pst! Great minds think alike!) hehehe. And also, because for the past two days or so I have talked to several people of my past and that has made me surprisingly happy. UWC is a world I left behind basically when I graduated, and except for the few incredibly special people who kind of bridge UWC past with present, I don't really have much to do it with it anymore, despite the fact that I am happy I went there and sometimes think about it!

DANCE ARTS
Dance Arts has been and will obviously forever be like my second home. My closest long-time friends are from there as most people will know! I met people like D, Nic, Li, Dai there who through time and distance have proved to be the best of friends. They are amazing people and all so individualistic, and I love how everything is changing but nothing is changing at the same time.
In D.A, I have also come across the best teachers both in dance and in life, as corny as that may sound! (Auntie) Gill, Auntie Beth, Susan, Doris, Cindy, Derrick, who have all, sometime in my years there taught me something significant. All in all, i love this home of mine, and I hope it still feels like home when I go there again this summer. I can't wait.

UWC
I met loads and loads and loads of people here who have left prominent footprints in my life, but in actuality there are only very few who I have kept in touch with and vice versa. BUT THESE FEW PEOPLE I know are going to be around forever... 'and when i say forever, forever's what i mean' and they are so incredibly special and utterly irreplacable. I feel super lucky.

Sophia U
Okay, so now I finally come to my friends of NOW who I actually wanted to dedicate my blogpost of tonight and today (i posted pics of them earlier) to. I remember, my first two friends that I met were Aya and Yuka. When i was sick at orientation camp, and missing out on all the socialising and in the room at 7 at night, they came up to me and checked to see if i was alright! That was it! It was Love! hehehe. And then I met Chris and ever since taking Chinese Civ and Econs AND Japanese together it has been a continuously blossoming friendship! And Sachi I actually met through Aya and Yuka i think, and I feel like I get to know her better and better everytime I see her, and that's an awesome feeling. It's unfortunate that she will be going on an exchange programme for a year, but i know our friendship is one that will last as well! And Ayako, it all began with me liking her clothes. hehe. Something trivial can lead to a really important friendship, so silly things like that should never be taken for granted! They mean loads and loads to me, because in a land where I still feel like an outsider and incredibly lost sometimes, they bring great comfort to me, and they make my everyday interesting.

So yes, I should make my blog come to an end because this is WAY too long... Thanks to all those I have met, and all those who have stuck around, and all those who I know are going to be around forever and ever.

But more specifically for today/tonight's entry, thanks to Aya, Ayako, Chris, Sachi, and Yuka, who I haven't thanked enough for making my days at school and in Japan full of smiles and Laughter!

Ayako, Aya, Sachi, and Yuka!
A KopiRight?

Arabian Pose?
A KopiRight?

Ayako, Aya, Sachi and Me at ARABIAN ROCK
A KopiRight?

Me and Yuka!
A KopiRight?

Me and Chris!
A KopiRight?

Ayako and Me!
A KopiRight?

Super Six
A KopiRight?

Aya, Me and Sachi!
A KopiRight?

BORED IN SCHOOL n DANCE!!!

So I finally finished my architecture presentation, and am in school right now wondering whether to take a nap (for lack of sleep last night due to stoopid fat mosquito) or to work and do a reading on art and photography! But anyway, put that aside, i have more important things to do, like let all my goodie friends in Singapore and elsewhere know that I actually haven't given up dance yet! (especially after yesterday's class!)

Yesterday I went to Broadway Dance Centre, which is the school i go to, and i got to chat with my classmate AND my teacher! (he talked to me in English!!!, YAY!) It was just so awesome cause I just couldnt keep up first, but as i got used to the steps, i got into it and finalmente i could do it! You know that for the past few weeks, i really was beginning to think that i had little chance and hope of pursuing my dreams but maybe, just maybe, i was mistaken (fingers crossed), as I realised that I still Love it. No matter how good dance was though, trust me when i say that i would rather be dancing with u guys (u know who u are) anyday! I still havent tapped in ages as well which is a BIG problem, D when I come stay with u in ur house or in the condo we have to tap in our free time and make up some funky choreo okay?!

Anyway, to get into an artsy mood, i think that i am going to post some images and art works which i am really liking right now!

Finally, i will also add some awesome Mariah Carey lyrics only for ur pleasure!

Who else am i gonna lean on when times get rough?
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone till the sun comes up?
Who's gonna take your place, there ain't nobody better
We belong together

Creative or Apple?

Okay, so today I went to go buy earphones and I got these sweet ones which are (gasp!) GREEEEEEEN! For those of u that do not know, green makes me feel calm, happy, and also another h-adjective, amongst other emotions! hehehe All in all, Green is my Happy colour. ANYWAY, i went to LAOX this denki yasan (electronics shop), which is a huge one and I came across the CREATIVE MP3 player. Now, I think i would like a new MP3 player. Creative or Apple is the question that I propose! Please get back to me! Basically I am deciding between the Mini Ipod 4GB one(in lime green!) or the Zen Micro 5GB one (in green).

On a more serious note, I didn't win the lottery today.

And a more serious note, I am missing my mission partner loads. I predict that I shall not hear from DK for a week. if you come across this site, know that I am thinking of u!

And lastly, I love D, Nic, and all my other girlies that make my day all the way from Sing!

ACTUALLY FINALLY: Newsflash: Mariah Carey's new album is No.1 in the States. Congrats Mariah! hehe (I LOVE HER! - hope she stumbles into this site!)

Dreams by Gavin deGraw and Long Distance Relationships!

Okay, so the lyrics that I wrote below actually are lyrics by my favourite singer right now ( yes it is singular, sorry to people who received false facts from me!) Gavin deGraw. I love it, and it really gets to me, quite simply because it reflects my situation today! I am a lovesick person, but only because I am SO happy except for the fact that I cant physically be with the person that I want to be with. Long distance relationships (let's call them LDR's) are a pain in the ass, but you know, they are really really worth it with someone, the 'right' one. Sometimes it gets terribly painful and lonely, but knowing that this might get you next to that person one day soon is so worth it (right Schiz? :-)) So if anyone stumbles onto my blog, and is wondering about LDR's (to my dearest friend Koko, this does also include you) know that it's worth it, and don't give up so easily okay? If you need anything, I am always here! Love, XOXO

Dreams

Spending all my money on phonecards
Waiting for my ship to come in
In from that ocean, come home to this sea
Harbouring in me

I don't believe in 4 leaf clovers
or the luck their supposed to bring
I've used all my wild cards
but there's something i can do
to get close to you

I've got dreams to love, and I love you
I know you feel the same way too
I feel your spirit, when you need me and when you're away
Somehow somewhere I'll see you again
But until then, I've got dreams of loving you

Thinking bout every little thing we ever did crazy
Sipping on that Memory Lane
That lane never closes, 7 days of the week
I can drive in my sleep

Dreams I will share, when I see you again
And I'll see you again, pretty soon
I pray but until then, I've got dreams

I've got dreams to love, and I love you
I know you feel the same way too
I feel your spirit when you need me and when you're away
Somehow somewhere I'll see you again, but until then I've got dreams of loving you

My Favourite People in the Entire World

I dedicate all the photos below to my favourite people in the entire world! There are people who could not be included because of lack of photos of them on my laptop! You darlings should know who you are. I miss you all, those who I cannot be with everyday I look forward to seeing you!

Lovebirds again! Hehe, yeah I still get gushy and mushy and slushy and blushy etc etc!
A copeerite

Disneyland Again!
A copeerite

Clock wise from top left: Yuka, Sachiko, Aya, Chris, Me and Ayako
A copeerite

D and I in Brewerkz
A copeerite

Nic, D and I in Mos Burger (so long ago!)
A copeerite

Tough Stranger. Chrissssss
A copeerite

Dai, Li and I in England
A copeerite

Disneyland, Rowing
A copeerite

Lovebirds hehe. I love Johnny
A copeerite

First Time for Everything: testing testing 123

Okay, so this if my first time... Well first time this time. I tried this once before, and my previous blog is probably floating somewhere in cyber space. I have no idea what triggered me to start, I guess just wanted to give people a place to find out how I am doing without having to contact me! (HUH?!) Anyway, this is basically, TESTING TESTING 123